I just don't even know

[derien]

I thought I could always flee to Canada, but found out election night that my "Aunty" in Canada had passed away. Yeah, that makes it sound like that was my primary thought, all about me. Not really, I just thought it sounded funny to say it that way. In fact the thought of the world without this person in it was so incredibly unbelievable I cried for the rest of the evening. She was so present for me as a stable adult when my parents weren't. She was so gentle and wise and caring. We went to Canada to visit in August because I knew time was growing short and I might not get another chance, and I'm so glad I made that decision. Being in her house and talking with her was healing to my spirit, and at least now I have that memory.

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[radiantfracture]

I'm so sorry.

[derien]

Thanks. The timing particularly sucks... the world is falling apart and the person who I could always count on to be stable is gone. I have to try to invest her spirit into me as much as I can, and try to be a better person, so I can pass on that gift of feeling like there's a stable person in the world to other people who all need it right now.

[amedia]

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. I'm glad you had her in your life, and that you visited her when you had a chance. ♥ ♥ ♥

[derien]

Thank you. Really I am very lucky I had her modeling of good adult behavior.

[laurenthemself]

May her memory be a blessing.