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[derien]

I spent the day lazing around reading badfic - which, while not a bad thing in and of itself, is pretty much what I've done every day I've had to myself for the past few months, and I'm a little bored with myself. I did, at one point, open one of my writing folders, and then ran away from it as soon as I felt myself start to get interested. Then wondered if I've been keeping myself away from writing out of some fear that I'll get caught up in it again and not be able to stop... why would I be afraid of that? Why is actually feeling somewhat interested in something scarey to me?