![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
I almost just set my mood as 'annoyed,' but I have always felt uncomfortable with setting a mood. It's too... narrow, I guess. It's rare that I can really confine myself to one mood. There's a bunch of things going on at any one time. I'm feeling like the house is too big and I'm a little bereft because Hawk is gone, but of course at the same time it's nice to feel like the space is available again, and that there's nobody looking disapprovingly over my shoulder at what I eat, while he eats whatever he wants. I still had to wash the stove this morning, but it wasn't a smeared mess of grease. OTOH what's the difference if it's just a spattering from when I cooked my egg, yesterday, or a smeared mess if I still have to wash it?
Meanwhile, yesterday at work I found myself getting all bogged down with paperwork and confused about things that I had been able to do fine last week, and perplexed as to how to even start other things which I promised I would do and thought I could when I promised, and there's only today and tomorrow before I go on vaca and it's all aaaaagh! y'know? And then Jigsaw is a student in the class we're doing this week, and he came back from break looking really rough. A few weeks ago they found out his fiance has a brain tumor and I had heard they'd managed to reduce the size of it, but last night he heard something bad. I guess it's a good thing he got this class over with. I said to him, "We ought to drink," and he said he hasn't been able to drink at all since this all started. I've had some times in my life like that, when drinking just made me feel worse; it's good he can make that decision.
And just this morning I realized the brim of my new hat is just a little narrower at the front than at the sides. I'm OCD enough that this is going to bother me to no end. It disrupts me ridiculously! I'm debating if I should ask the woman who made it if she can fix it, or if I should ask La Professeur - she does alterations on our work uniforms, so probably has the skill to make it work, whereas if the woman who made the hat couldn't get it right the first time she probably can't fix it.
ETA: Also I just started my period, because we're going to go on vacation day after tomorrow. :P
Meanwhile, yesterday at work I found myself getting all bogged down with paperwork and confused about things that I had been able to do fine last week, and perplexed as to how to even start other things which I promised I would do and thought I could when I promised, and there's only today and tomorrow before I go on vaca and it's all aaaaagh! y'know? And then Jigsaw is a student in the class we're doing this week, and he came back from break looking really rough. A few weeks ago they found out his fiance has a brain tumor and I had heard they'd managed to reduce the size of it, but last night he heard something bad. I guess it's a good thing he got this class over with. I said to him, "We ought to drink," and he said he hasn't been able to drink at all since this all started. I've had some times in my life like that, when drinking just made me feel worse; it's good he can make that decision.
And just this morning I realized the brim of my new hat is just a little narrower at the front than at the sides. I'm OCD enough that this is going to bother me to no end. It disrupts me ridiculously! I'm debating if I should ask the woman who made it if she can fix it, or if I should ask La Professeur - she does alterations on our work uniforms, so probably has the skill to make it work, whereas if the woman who made the hat couldn't get it right the first time she probably can't fix it.
ETA: Also I just started my period, because we're going to go on vacation day after tomorrow. :P
