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mars_manliness.:) Daegaer is so damn good at writing Victorians it's scarey. They're all class-unconsious. Lieutenants Bracy and Roberts don't even think of inviting Sergeant Gee inside their quarters, when he comes to speak to them, because he's an enlisted man. Sergeants seem to be in an awkward position, like butlers - not quite of the lower class nor of the upper class, they're the go-betweens. Gee has to carry out orders and make the men do more than they're able, then punish them when they talk back to him about it, but they don't know that he goes to the Lieutenants and begs to have the orders changed. He's becoming an interesting character.
I think I'm immersing myself in thinking about the characterization of the Victorian military guys because I really don't want to think about what's going on with me. I'm not fitting well into the pseudo-military rules TSA runs by. Yes I feel physically like crap, today, but the real reason I ended up calling in sick is because when I realized I was not going to be able to be on time I couldn't deal with getting in trouble for being late - I knew I would cry, because I wasn't feeling well enough to withstand the emotional stress of it. I might end up getting in trouble for calling in sick as late as I did. I probably will, since I seem to have a target painted on my back. I might get put on "Peters Probation" - where they ask you to have a doctor's note if you call in sick. For the rest of time, I guess. That's the hard part about their rules - time never seems to expunge anything from your record.
I phoned the Employee Assisstance Program and cried on the phone to a counselor for a while. I don't know if maybe she just said it to make me feel better, but she said they get lots of calls from people in TSA with similar problems. She said she suspects it's because there's so many ex-military in the management and so many people who were never military who are screeners (which my co-workers and I had pretty much already determined). She said it seems to be a military trait to sniff out someone's weakness and then just hammer on it mercilessly. I responded that I've also heard screeners who are ex-military saying that they don't understand why our management seems to make things SO difficult, as they never got in trouble so much when they were in the military. I wish I knew what that was about. Maybe it's yet another symptom of the mix of military with civilians. It does seem that we are all punished as a group quite often - tiny 'priviledges' (which civilians take as 'rights') keep getting taken away. And they're all taken away indefinetly. It seems pretty soon they've got to run out of 'priviledges' to take away.
mars_manliness.:) Daegaer is so damn good at writing Victorians it's scarey. They're all class-unconsious. Lieutenants Bracy and Roberts don't even think of inviting Sergeant Gee inside their quarters, when he comes to speak to them, because he's an enlisted man. Sergeants seem to be in an awkward position, like butlers - not quite of the lower class nor of the upper class, they're the go-betweens. Gee has to carry out orders and make the men do more than they're able, then punish them when they talk back to him about it, but they don't know that he goes to the Lieutenants and begs to have the orders changed. He's becoming an interesting character.I think I'm immersing myself in thinking about the characterization of the Victorian military guys because I really don't want to think about what's going on with me. I'm not fitting well into the pseudo-military rules TSA runs by. Yes I feel physically like crap, today, but the real reason I ended up calling in sick is because when I realized I was not going to be able to be on time I couldn't deal with getting in trouble for being late - I knew I would cry, because I wasn't feeling well enough to withstand the emotional stress of it. I might end up getting in trouble for calling in sick as late as I did. I probably will, since I seem to have a target painted on my back. I might get put on "Peters Probation" - where they ask you to have a doctor's note if you call in sick. For the rest of time, I guess. That's the hard part about their rules - time never seems to expunge anything from your record.
I phoned the Employee Assisstance Program and cried on the phone to a counselor for a while. I don't know if maybe she just said it to make me feel better, but she said they get lots of calls from people in TSA with similar problems. She said she suspects it's because there's so many ex-military in the management and so many people who were never military who are screeners (which my co-workers and I had pretty much already determined). She said it seems to be a military trait to sniff out someone's weakness and then just hammer on it mercilessly. I responded that I've also heard screeners who are ex-military saying that they don't understand why our management seems to make things SO difficult, as they never got in trouble so much when they were in the military. I wish I knew what that was about. Maybe it's yet another symptom of the mix of military with civilians. It does seem that we are all punished as a group quite often - tiny 'priviledges' (which civilians take as 'rights') keep getting taken away. And they're all taken away indefinetly. It seems pretty soon they've got to run out of 'priviledges' to take away.