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So I stayed home again yesterday, but decided not to bore you all with more stories of sitting around being dull, eating oranges and chicken soup. I read "The Riding Hound of the House of Tain", which is a retelling of "Hound of the Baskervilles" using Garak and Bashir (from Deep Space 9) in place of Holmes and Watson.
In some ways I think it works better than the original. In "Hound" Holmes seemingly abandons Watson and hides all his plans from him, which always seemed a little out of character for Holmes, to me. And, apparently, to Watson, who (if I recall correctly) is rather hurt by it. (I'm re-reading the original, now, just to see if I have a different impression, now.) When Garak does the same thing it's completely in character and Bashir is not in the least surprised or bothered by it because it's exactly the sort of behavior he expects. He just asserts that he trusts Garak and lets it go at that.
I also typed up more old journals, yesterday, and am back at it this morning. The one I typed today was a trial and tribulation, just like the rest, but it did offer me some insights into my younger mind. There's so much I don't remember. I remembered I had some issues with being bi, because it was completely not-cool in my school, but didn't remember that I had so little concept of what being queer was all about. It's evident in the way I wrote about things that at that point I had absolutely no exposure to anything beyond the stereotypical flamers which was all one saw in the movies or on tv. But I was reaching for the fact that on some level I knew that media representation was just not the truth.
I also had blanked out the fact that my first boyfriend was really a complete asshole. I knew I'd dumped him and felt good about having done it, but I couldn't remember why. How odd. Or is it?
In some ways I think it works better than the original. In "Hound" Holmes seemingly abandons Watson and hides all his plans from him, which always seemed a little out of character for Holmes, to me. And, apparently, to Watson, who (if I recall correctly) is rather hurt by it. (I'm re-reading the original, now, just to see if I have a different impression, now.) When Garak does the same thing it's completely in character and Bashir is not in the least surprised or bothered by it because it's exactly the sort of behavior he expects. He just asserts that he trusts Garak and lets it go at that.
I also typed up more old journals, yesterday, and am back at it this morning. The one I typed today was a trial and tribulation, just like the rest, but it did offer me some insights into my younger mind. There's so much I don't remember. I remembered I had some issues with being bi, because it was completely not-cool in my school, but didn't remember that I had so little concept of what being queer was all about. It's evident in the way I wrote about things that at that point I had absolutely no exposure to anything beyond the stereotypical flamers which was all one saw in the movies or on tv. But I was reaching for the fact that on some level I knew that media representation was just not the truth.
I also had blanked out the fact that my first boyfriend was really a complete asshole. I knew I'd dumped him and felt good about having done it, but I couldn't remember why. How odd. Or is it?