do I hate my life, or myself and my lack of willpower?

[derien]

I hate being so tired all the time.
I hate not being able to get myself to go to sleep.
I hate not being able to read as much as I want.
heh.:)

But really, I do like lots of reading time and lots of me-time. It's unfortunate that other things do need to get done. Damn dishes are piling up. Etc. And I told eor I would be up early to help him work on the van. Idiot that I am, why the hell am I still awake? I subsisted on coffee all day at work, and it looks like I'll do the same tomorrow... or rather, today, since I'm not effing asleep and it's after midnight. grr.