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So, I went with "Leviathan" because it was available and read by Alan Cumming, but what I wanted was unavailable, of course, was "Not My Father's Son", which is his autobiography and read by him, and Amedia (I believe?) said it was good.
It is good. But I find it weird that when he talks about those feelings of waiting for his father to have his angry explosions, those moments of noticing every detail as he arrives home, so that he'll know whether his father was home or not, what kind of mood he was in, whether he was likely to be able to slide by for a few minutes more, the relief when his mother entered the house... that I so strongly can feel exactly what that's like. I don't know if this has to do with my stepmother's behavior or my ex's, or just my own rather tender personal feelings and rather extreme need for quiet, alone, space.
It is good. But I find it weird that when he talks about those feelings of waiting for his father to have his angry explosions, those moments of noticing every detail as he arrives home, so that he'll know whether his father was home or not, what kind of mood he was in, whether he was likely to be able to slide by for a few minutes more, the relief when his mother entered the house... that I so strongly can feel exactly what that's like. I don't know if this has to do with my stepmother's behavior or my ex's, or just my own rather tender personal feelings and rather extreme need for quiet, alone, space.