Christmas is coming, the goose is getting fat.

[derien]

I wrote to O...
>But I'm trying to think of what to write about, and everything I'm thinking
>of sounds negative. Not horrible, just dull and boring and not positive.

To which O replied...
Sounds like depression to me. Honestly and seriously, this is how I detect
the advent of it. I have concluded that at this stage you can probably
still fight it, but I'm not sure how likely you are to win.

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I'm not feeling any better, but I have gotten my desk cleaned off, my computer vaccuumed out, my connectivity restored (it got so flakey I had to fiddle with the network cable every minute), and I walked a fair amount on the treadmill yesterday and today. These ARE positive things, I wish I could use them to make me feel less bleh.

I didn't get any holiday cards out... I'm debating whether it's too late and I should just leave it, or if I should just go ahead and send them anyway. My address changed (I didn't move, it was a thing the town did for 911) so I figure I should let people know. If anyone has any opinion on this, let me know - does it look stupid to send holiday cards late?

And I feel like all the gifts I bought people are stupid. I don't even want what people got for me, because I feel like it's all going to be so much better than what I got them.

I hope things will look up now that the solstice has passed and the days are getting longer. I hope Eor will get a job so we can pay our mortgage.

Comments

[licking-suntan.livejournal.com]

Do you get depressed every winter? I used to and it's weird, but I almost miss it this year, like something isn't quite right. I just don't feel wintery. Instead of waiting for the sun to get back, get some 100-watt bulbs to try and create fake sunshine. Sit next to sunny windows as much as possile. Go outside and get fresh air even if it's cold and cloudy.

[fozzie33.livejournal.com]

I'd say better late than never on the cards, although I didn't send any to anyone... but I never do. And I did my Xmas shopping this morning, and did get some all right stuff, but being so broke I couldn't really get anything too nice. But the only things I got were for my mom & step-dad and my dad & his woman, and parents have to like what you get them. :) And I can totally relate the the lack-of-sunshine blah feeling. I want to get one of those natural light lamps...

[derien.livejournal.com]

My seat at work is not near any windows... You're right, I should get the full-spectrum lights. If I put it next to my desk, maybe I could squeeze some of my plants in here, too, they'd like it. If you guys could see how small this room is that comment would make you laugh.:)