period post

postdating -

Apparently This was the date I had a horrible awful period day in October.  I nearly called in sick the next day, but decided to go in and, as I recall, it wasn't nearly as bad. 

"Dear Diary, Sorry to bother you again..."

Saturday, when we were in the used bookstore with matushan I sort of half-looked for a book on journalizing. She was baffled as to why I'd want to learn how to write my journal, and I think I said something like, 'it's just that I think it's rather boring.' Later, when we were in Borders, there was a book of New Yorker cartoons. One had a guy writing what I put in my subject line, and the caption was something like, 'journalizing for those of low self-esteem.' So, she pointed that out and had a good laugh at me. :)

So, my finger is feeling about normal again. Though it was yesterday morning, too, and by the end of the day tossing luggage it wasn't feeling so good. I hadn't been careful enough on it. It hasn't been so much my finger keeping me from typing much, though, as just generally keeping myself busy.

( Monday hung with Teena )

( Tuesday hung with June )

So, with things having been stilted with Teena and June unhappy with the party, my insecurities about socializing are coming up and I'm feeling like a failure. Oh, and not to mention, I still haven't phoned my brother, Eightball, and his birthday was on the 9th. Someone asked me why and I admitted it's because the last time I phoned him he didn't seem to want to talk to me. Even my Dad didn't seem to want to talk to me last time I was on the phone with him, and he's usually garroulous. I haven't written to my Mom. I haven't visited my Grandmother. I suck at human interaction.

Hey, did I mention I started my period yesterday? So, before you even tell me, I know - practice makes better, so I need to practice what I suck at, and not go curl up in a little ball and hide.

Breakfast needs to be made and lunch packed and work worked, so off I go, now.