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I got my first OJT 'student' (for want of a better word), Style, finished, today. Or almost finished. I have to contact the other OJT monitor - Detail - tomorrow and ask him to add the time which he tracked onto the official sheet and take it to a manager to sign off. I only had to track two hours and go down through a bunch of profficiency signoffs. I think Style knows what he's doing. He'd better, or I'll kick him. :) Seriously, though, if I turn out to be a good OJT monitor it will be due to his patience as my first student, being my guinea pig and letting me practice my techniques on him.
*refers back to her subject line* Oh, I was going to admit to my temper. Yes. Now, in my defense, I've been feeling a bit stressed out, lately, and was feeling a bit more so this afternoon given that I was doing the OJT monitoring for the first time, and it was my Friday after a full week of eleven hour days. But I also have to admit that a particular co-worker (MinisterJaundice) has managed to really push me over the edge a few times. I lost my temper and he ended up giving me the silent treatment, and then later I felt guilty about being so mean. He's not a bad guy, he just likes to push my buttons. I was agonizing over it, and Style said he thought that what I was really upset about was that I had let him get me angry and I didn't know why. But now that I've thought about it for a while I realize that it's really rather simple. I lose my temper with him, he shuts up, I get to enjoy some quiet. His giving me the silent treatment, far from being a punishment, is so damned pleasant that I'm becoming conditioned to the idea that losing my temper will lead to a nice thing - the absence of his voice. Plus there's the added catharsis factor, which, seeing as I've been so stressed out, is kind of good.
*yawns prodigiously* What the heck am I still doing up? I was falling asleep on my feet at work, and tomorrow I have to go to the bellydance class - I should have been abed two hours ago.
*refers back to her subject line* Oh, I was going to admit to my temper. Yes. Now, in my defense, I've been feeling a bit stressed out, lately, and was feeling a bit more so this afternoon given that I was doing the OJT monitoring for the first time, and it was my Friday after a full week of eleven hour days. But I also have to admit that a particular co-worker (MinisterJaundice) has managed to really push me over the edge a few times. I lost my temper and he ended up giving me the silent treatment, and then later I felt guilty about being so mean. He's not a bad guy, he just likes to push my buttons. I was agonizing over it, and Style said he thought that what I was really upset about was that I had let him get me angry and I didn't know why. But now that I've thought about it for a while I realize that it's really rather simple. I lose my temper with him, he shuts up, I get to enjoy some quiet. His giving me the silent treatment, far from being a punishment, is so damned pleasant that I'm becoming conditioned to the idea that losing my temper will lead to a nice thing - the absence of his voice. Plus there's the added catharsis factor, which, seeing as I've been so stressed out, is kind of good.
*yawns prodigiously* What the heck am I still doing up? I was falling asleep on my feet at work, and tomorrow I have to go to the bellydance class - I should have been abed two hours ago.