I'm not hot shit in a wineglass, more curried goat in a paper cup

Okay, I've bored everyone at work with my angsting over my dilemma, so now I'll unload on you.  Because what is LJ for if not making you all listen to my whine.  Except you really don't have to because you can just skip on to read the next person who's not whining.  But, hey, it's my LJ and I think it might help me think if I write it all out, and you can feel free to give me your opinion if you like.  I'd like to hear it.  ( I'll use an LJ cut so you don't have to scan through my whole thing in order to find the next person you want to read. )

I think that's about it.