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Mainertoo gave me a stern talking-to about how I should become a Lead, this evening.  He says Leads don't really take much more crap than regular screeners, because they can always pass it up to Supervisors.  All you have to do is a little more maintenance stuff and make sure people rotate, and in return you get a lot more mobility - you can go get a cup of coffee if you want - and get paid $8,000 more per year.  He's not the only person who's been telling me things like that, lately.  Numerous people have been pushing me for the last couple of years to try for a Lead position, and I keep resisting, but...  I think I'm weakening.  $8,000.  And I DO know how to do most of the Lead stuff, I've done it all at one point or another.  I don't know, I don't know.

Do I just live to be contrary? Oh yeah, that's right. I do.

Okay, peak_in_darien - you have suggested before that it might be a good thing for me to just write and not hide my thinking process.  (or was that me to you?  am I getting us mixed up again?)  Well, I couldn't resist going back and cleaning it up a little here and there to make it more clear, but I nearly tossed it all out, so... this is something.  I would have replied to your comment, only LJ was being a bitch again and wouldn't let me.

( lots of wibbling that can be skipped if you want to fool yourself into thinking that I'm a really centered and together person )

I think the important thing is, I just haven't enjoyed the days when I've been temporary Lead, even though everyone says I do a fine job.  I've already asked them to take my name off the temp Lead list.  Several times.  It keeps somehow creeping back on there.

So, my conclusion is, I need to continue being strong and resist the peer pressure.  It feels good that people think they want me in the job, it's a great compliment.  I listen to them carefully every time they encourage me so that they won't think that I'm just brushing them off.  But.  No.