hmmm, Ch 12...

I'm doing my own proof-read, since these three chapters have been sitting on the back burner since May. I want to blame that on my not having a beta-reader right now, though I realize that's a thin excuse. That's long enough so that I can now sit back and catch some of my own mistakes.

Now I realized upon rereading it that Chapter 12 ended kind of abruptly. And that this might be the place for some manly scrumpings. And I have to face, again, that I'm terrified of going there. Partly this is because I don't want people to take this as 'underage' - they're actually the same age, and in their culture (particularly in Tom's class) expected to be planning marriage and kids soon. Tom's mother is looking around for potential wives for him, at home, I tried to make that plain in a previous chapter. He's done with school and is out in the work force, and Ethan will be done with school in another year. Also, at some point I might have to deal with the fact that Ethan (in my head) has been the school bicycle, and is baffled and confused that Tom seems very kind and caring and completely innocent of that idea. Implications of underage is not actual underage, and even though that was actually a known and understood aspect of boys boarding schools at one time, in our society, now, it could be misconstrued. Another part is I'm afraid it might mess up the flow of the story if they do anything serious... like, ever.

But I'm sort of wondering if those are all excuses, and if this is all really about me being a complete wuss. And lazy. I'd better go do my grocery shopping.

our interlibrary loan might be the slowest ever

Remember I posted that I was joining rachelmanija's Permanent Floating YA Diversity Book Club on October 14? I'm pretty sure that I did, as promised, go to the library the next day, or if not the next I didn't wait long. JUST got the book today. They initially said they would check to see if they wanted to order it or get it interlibrary and they would call me on Monday to let me know which they were doing, so I waited a week before bugging them about it, at which point they had no record of my having been there and we had to start over again. Anyhow, I think I'm going to start reading it tonight. :) Setting aside "The Stainless Steel Rat's Revenge," "The Yellow Admiral" and "The Practice Effect" ... do you think I overbook myself? (ha ha, ain't I a rattle.)

friggin medical diets can pound sand

I've been so so super good about this elimination diet, I haven't let a damned thing cross my lips that wasn't part of the starter diet or one of the chosen things I've added to it. I'm SO SICK OF THIS. Today I decided that corn chips and potato chips could both come back into my diet the same day. I carefully bought potato chips made only with canola oil and salt, because potatoes, canola oil and salt were all part of the base diet, and I managed to get corn chips which were pretty basic, too, so the only thing added today is actually just potential sunflower oil, but I maoued on those chips, both bags, all the way back from the store. (It didn't help that I was starving when I got to the store, so I was desperate.)

I'm afraid I might snap. I've been dreaming about delicious foods - last night I devoured a whole, full-sized chicken pot pie in my dream, and the night before it was ice cream and cookies. But as Eor pointed out, at least I'm not being chased by monsters. ;)