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Today is the final walk-through of the house and then the signing. Eeep! Talk about cold feet. *turns up the thermostat* I'd better get used to 64 degrees, the house is huge and will be expensive to heat. ;)
Seriously, I am nervous as hell about this right now, and telling myself it's stupid to be nervous NOW, since we really already committed to it weeks ago. I alternate between that and the next minute being all excited about having space for our stuff and a yard of our own to do with as we like, distance from neighbors so we don't have to listen to parades of drunks all night all summer, our own trees to walk under, Eor will be able to turn up his five-foot-tall speakers and not bother anybody, he'll be able to maintain the house to his liking, etc. I want to ramble on about pros and cons and animals - we keep daydreaming about sheep and I continue playfully teasing him about goats. Although I don't know if I'd want to leave goats alone all day, they'd almost certainly do something too clever for their own good, like escape and go strip the trees in the apple orchard down the road. Will I take up archery again if I have my own range? But oh, no, I need to stop thinking about things right now and go do some useful things before we go see that the place hasn't burned down in the past few weeks.
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ETA:
When I engage in self-calming behaviors I do it in a big way. I just spent a few minutes pacing and running my fingers through my hair.
Seriously, I am nervous as hell about this right now, and telling myself it's stupid to be nervous NOW, since we really already committed to it weeks ago. I alternate between that and the next minute being all excited about having space for our stuff and a yard of our own to do with as we like, distance from neighbors so we don't have to listen to parades of drunks all night all summer, our own trees to walk under, Eor will be able to turn up his five-foot-tall speakers and not bother anybody, he'll be able to maintain the house to his liking, etc. I want to ramble on about pros and cons and animals - we keep daydreaming about sheep and I continue playfully teasing him about goats. Although I don't know if I'd want to leave goats alone all day, they'd almost certainly do something too clever for their own good, like escape and go strip the trees in the apple orchard down the road. Will I take up archery again if I have my own range? But oh, no, I need to stop thinking about things right now and go do some useful things before we go see that the place hasn't burned down in the past few weeks.
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ETA:
When I engage in self-calming behaviors I do it in a big way. I just spent a few minutes pacing and running my fingers through my hair.